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  • TigerLilly
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    That was again a FINE piece of writing.********************************** Don't part with your illusions. When they are gone, you will still exist, but you have ceased to live. Samuel Clemens
  • marye
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    what they all said
    Folks above put it better than I could, bless 'em, but many good vibes and hopes for better times in the new year to you. We will get by!
  • Hal R
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    We are with you. Take care of yourself. Find joy in your life with your son, remember how important you are to each other. I wish you much peace to your spirit. I really just want to ditto what Oroboros said above. Hal If the doors of perception were cleansed, everything would appear to man as it is, infinite. William Blake
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    Do what you are doing, my friend. Talk when you can, it can help to endure the pain. That pain is the unwelcome balance the joy that we are blessed to experience. Recognize the great gift of your skeptical humor and wit that you share regularly with us. And know that there are times that your contribution offers us all here a 'cookie' that is a unique 'johnmanism'. I can hear the angst in your post but note the warm empathy for others as well. Again that contrast is striking. And welcome. Move on as you can, brother, and stop and rest when needed. Depression often takes herculean efforts to endure. It is exhasting. Honor your feelings, but care to not linger on those thoughts that are destructive to you and tax your sense of yourself. Persevere and remind yourself of your path and how far you have come. Be gentle with yourself. "Shall we go?...you and I, while we can?" Take care, Tim The Truth is realized in an instant, the act is practiced step by step.
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    hold on, my good (john)man- the sun will rise again-- we are reaching out to you because of your value in this world i hope you made contact with tigerlilly or someone else who could help ease your pain and isolation i'm sending you good vibes & good wishes & i'll keep you in my prayers- tomorrow is a new year (thank goodness!). thinking of you-- xo c caroline
  • TigerLilly
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    come in the chatroom-talk to me. is all I can say to do gotta walk the kids to a friend's and then will come back and wait 4 u! ********************************** Don't part with your illusions. When they are gone, you will still exist, but you have ceased to live. Samuel Clemens
  • johnman
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    when yer so down that ya can't talk to other people for fear you'll bum them out but ya need ta talk to someone so bad it makes yer chest hurt? when ya don't wanna eat, smoke, drink, sleep, stay awake, sit, stand, lie down but yer hungry thirsty tired and alone.........music doesn't help, nor does quiet, so scared ya wanna puke and can't. suicide is too much work and leaves a mess for someone else to clean up and bums THEM out, and ya know THAT ain't right, and ya know it's just selfish to think about yerself but ya know nobody else will.........and even if they do there's nothing they can do for you.................
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    Can anybody help GratefulMom out? She has DSO tix for tonight, and got stood up twice, and is in a bad way. is sort notice but very very important no idea what to do from here ********************************** Don't part with your illusions. When they are gone, you will still exist, but you have ceased to live. Samuel Clemens
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    Hey Bob,sometimes the night looks very dark,but the SUN comes up every morning and I wish you that its beams will cover you with all the good Vibes you need to go on..!!
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    peace through music Just wanted to jot a quick note on my way out the door to the hospital to see Norm. When your sinking in the mire of doubt and or depression just knowing that there are souls out there who take the time to care and write a few words of encouragement can be inspiring. It gives you the strength to carry on. Thank you all for this unconditional Love. And thank the stars for Marye and all the work you do connecting us all. Holiday blessings to all. To Sunshine Daydream Bob; Not sure what's wrong but sending Good Love vibes to you!
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to David, and safe travel to him and his lovely wife Rita on their way home.
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when i asked my priest to bless me prior to surgery the oil he used was patchouli. what a surprise THAT was.................david gans get well NOW!!!!!....yes, right NOW!!!
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this from Gans hisself: "Hey all - thanks for the kind thoughts! I am in a hospital in Carson City, Nevada. It turned out not to be pericarditis, but a "mild to moderate" heart attack. Last night I had an angioplasty and I now have three stents in my heart. Had a long meeting with the cardiologist this morning. He expects I will make a more or less complete recovery. I woke up yesterday morning in Lee Vining CA, in a motel overlooking Mono Lake. My plan was to drive out into the Basin & Range to visit Berlin-Ichthyosaur State Park, but I felt kinda weird after breakfast and so I sat in my hotel room until checkout time, hoping the bellyache would pass. Still feeling pretty rocky, I decided to head for the nearest city rather than go ahead with my middle-of-nowhere plan. When I hit Carson City two hours later, I was not feeling much better so I went on into the ER. " more healing vibes and ++++ vibes for all! love&peace.
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Thanks to all of you for your kind thoughts. We spoke at length with the cardiologist today, and he is confident that my recovery will be pretty close to 100%. I have been (for the most part) doing the right things, lifestyle-wise, for several years, but my genetic predisposition to heart disease means I have to start taking some meds. I had to cancel a few gigs, but I will be on my feet and ready to rock with the Reptiles at the Starry Plough in Berkeley on September 4 - extra poignant for me, since it is a memorial for our longtime partner Al Feldstein, who died of a heart attack on June 21. Gans/GD Hour blog
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glad to hear yer ok man. iv'e heard of people's hearts attacking them.....not supposed to be fun
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So glad to hear your doing well !! Keep up the good lifestyle , stay healthy . Best of wishes to ya !!
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we're all sending healing vibes your way....see ya at Schwagstock 42!!!!It'll be great to finally meet you in person Brother. www.theschwag.com "In a bed, in a bed, by the waterside I will lay my head. Listen to the river sing sweet songs, to rock my soul."
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We'll just know that Love willdominate, eradicate, and destroy all suffering.
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David I am a devoted listener and love all the shows hope you get better soon. I am also watching the terrible fires in LA and am praying for a nice big series of rain storms to help out we could use less humisdty in Miami. And the road goes on forever.... BobbaLee
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are there circles and arrows involved?
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of each one to be used as evidence? Heehee Johnman!********************************** Education: that which reveals to the wise, and conceals from the stupid, the vast limits of their knowledge. Mark Twain
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and paragraphs
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Thought we were pretty continuously there :) Good health vibes to you David. How negligent of me not to have said so already! Wish you peace and health. ********************************** Education: that which reveals to the wise, and conceals from the stupid, the vast limits of their knowledge. Mark Twain
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get well soon david, please
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May you stay forever young... Sorry you lost your longtime friend. Galaxy beams and hugs!
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My wife Candy is in the hospital with the swine flu and pneumonia in both lungs. She should be home in 3 or 4 days. Please everyone get your flu shots. There a lot of very sick people waiting to get admitted with complications from the flu. And the road goes on forever.... BobbaLee
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Best warm wishes for a full and speedy recovery. Will be vibing you as strongly as I can. How is your daughter doing BobbaLee?********************************** Education: that which reveals to the wise, and conceals from the stupid, the vast limits of their knowledge. Mark Twain
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+++ vibes for all and ++++ vibes for folks in Samoa and Indonesia. peace.
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Thanks for all the kindnessshe is a little better my daughter is fine And the road goes on forever.... BobbaLee
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Get well soon wishes for Candy and for anyone else who needs them !!
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Candy has been moved to the ICU she has a very serious pneumonia she is a fighter. And the road goes on forever.... BobbaLee
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Am keeping Candy in my thoughts. Strength to your family!********************************** Education: that which reveals to the wise, and conceals from the stupid, the vast limits of their knowledge. Mark Twain
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My prayers and healing beams to Bobbalee, Candy and David Gans. Wow, I had heard David was sick but three stints sick...? I had no idea! Thank goodness you decided to stop in at the ER dude. Bobbalee, hang in there... our prayers and thoughts are with you and your family.
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Candy is sedated and on a ventilator which sounds worse than it is. This allows her body to rest and the machine actually forces more oxygen and medicine into her lungs. Her temperature is normal and the bacteria count is dropping . It will be a long journey however I feel more hopeful than yesterday. In speaking with the ER and ICU nurses this is the beginning of a Tidal wave of Flu to Pneumonia cases. By midnite they had admitted 5 other patients all under 55 with the same problem, Get your swine flu shots and stay on top of anyone feeling sick and not wanting to go to the doctor. Thanks to all our extended family! Love Bob and Candy And the road goes on forever.... BobbaLee
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Candy is sedated and on a ventilator which sounds worse than it is. This allows her body to rest and the machine actually forces more oxygen and medicine into her lungs. Her temperature is normal and the bacteria count is dropping . It will be a long journey however I feel more hopeful than yesterday. In speaking with the ER and ICU nurses this is the beginning of a Tidal wave of Flu to Pneumonia cases. By midnite they had admitted 5 other patients all under 55 with the same problem, Get your swine flu shots and stay on top of anyone feeling sick and not wanting to go to the doctor. Thanks to all our extended family! Love Bob and Candy And the road goes on forever.... BobbaLee
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thanks for the updates on Candy. Sending her all good wishes!
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Keeping Candy in our prayers. Best thoughts to all who are in need.
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It is very important that the whole world consist of people who have nothing but positive vibes for each other.
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Well today we all including the wonderful staff were smiling a little-her oxygen level continues to rise and her temp. dropped a little more.It is strange how the terrible becomes routine-When I walk into the ICU unit I look at the monitors to see what her oxygen/blood, breathing and blood pressure rates are. As I suit up and put on my gloves and mask I ask the attending nurse how the latest X ray was and the PEEP level of the respirator. A week ago I knew nothing of these terms or what the numbers meant. Now I ask as casually as I would if I asking for cream in a cup of coffee. It is surreal. I am looking at ( this a wild guess) thousands of dollars of trained professionals per hour in the ICU, millions of dollars worth of equipment and medicines. In one ICU in a hospital that 4. And the road goes on forever.... BobbaLee
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for Candy and BobbaLeePeace & Love, Gigi xoxo Here comes sunshine, here comes sunshine!!
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I just read my post of Oct 5 and today it seems so long ago. By the 7th Candy's situation was getting worse the H1N1 was still showing up in tests her white cell count was low and her oxygenination level was slowly dropping. The Doctors told me to to be prepared for the worse and call the kids home. That afternoon the doctor in the ICU in charge of infectous diseases asked a friend at the CDC and The FDA to release an experimental anti-viral drug. It stops the virus from reproducing. They flew it down by courier from Atlanta and that afternoon they started administering it. Now it was literally a matter of keeping her alive long enough to allow her body to kill the H1N1 off. Sunday and Monday were tough I sat by her through much of the day holding her hand. Monday afternoon her oxygen level began to pick upBy Tuesday morning her temp had dropped her oxygen level increased even more. Tuesday afternoon the doctors and staff thought her lungs were sounding better. The medicine had worked. Each day has shown an improvement. She is not out of the woods yet but I think We are real close to saying she has beaten the H1N1 and the pneumonia. Thanks all for all of your love and thoughts. Bob and Candy, Matt,Alex, David and Missy Mihm And the road goes on forever.... BobbaLee